Something about something or other?

Some how

I cry every night,

My eyes get puffy and red,

in the morning I just don't feel right,

I almost feel dead.

Walking through the dark,

I look for something that feels familiar,

something to ignite that spark,

so I don't feel like such a failure.

I left and practically ran into the door,

The look on your face left nothing to the imagination,

It hurt so much to leave, I was left gasping on the floor,

In my heart I knew I owed you a better explanation.

You cried and My heart shattered,

I cry and you don't even know,

i got so cold inside my teeth began to chatter,

I walk away and i feel my love beginning to go.

Nothing I did was right,

nothing I did was good,

I felt my mind and my heart rearing to fight,

but every thing hurts, as it should.

Im horrible inside,

and nothing will change,

because with each passing minute I tell myself never to confide,

to you I probably sound so strange.

I've built up these walls,

and no one can break them down,

even when you think you might, you'll be the one who falls,

I cant even muster up the courage to frown.

though later, when my door is shut,

I cry so much it could fill up an entire pool,

i feel like I'm just getting worse, seriously I feel it in my gut,

I'm walking around, joking about it, looking and acting like such a fool.

This is bad, This is really really bad,

unfortunately I'll never be better than I am now,

and frankly it's quite sad,

I just wish I could grow into a better person, some day, some how.

-AmberWomack 8/25/10